So, over the last few weeks, Kari (now Car-ee, as she is being called in our new town) and I have felt like life is starting to slow down a little bit. Instead of running around, borrowing cars, wondering where/ who we would be staying with, we know that we will be moving very soon, and thus our residence will be constant; Deloris the Taurus (our ’94 green machine) is running- on a prayer, but running nontheless. Our job description is becoming a little more focused: fundraising and planning for what we want to do for youth group for the semester/ year- if you have any suggestions, tips, etc. let us know (respond to this post, call, text, facebook, anything really) we gladly welcome it! 🙂
So, in regards to the title of this post- I got it from the Pinocchio character from “Shrek” (I don’t remember which part) but he proudly proclaims, “I’m a real boy!” This has come to mind because I am beginning to realize where in life I am at. I have grraduated from college, I have been married for more than a year, and I am starting a job in the field I went to school for…a real job! It may sound strange, but it is finally starting to hit me! For the first time this summer, Kare and I have finally been able to sit down and think/ plan for this new adventure. I am yet to wrap my mind around the tasks and responsibilities that now come with this position. Lately, I have been scared of it. Scared that there are things I can’t handle, things I will forget, not having a plan- or even a clue of where to start, so on and so forth.
Kari has shared what she learned through our Coldwater summer about “functioning through fear”; what I learned was that I am afraid of failing- failing at anything. Thinking back through the last 7-8 years or so, my fear of failure has kept me from trying new things, kept me from maximizing my potential as a leader, and has probably stunted growth as a husband, friend, son, brother, and Christ-follower. So, with this new chapter in life, I have probably been a little slow in preparing because I am afraid- asking myself, “what if … doesn’t work?” “what if they don’t like me?”
I am comforted in the fact that I know we are supposed to be here; we have been led here and have gone with obedience, knowing fullly that we have been/ are/ and will continue to be provided for so long as we say, “Yes Lord…”
So, growing up, I’m finding, is hard; however, it is very exciting and we believe that God is going to work through us in ways we don’t even know.
Well, here’s to being “real” boys and girls!